I always longed for something more. There were moments in my life where I had clarity and purpose, driving for something greater. But I always fell back into the mundane, the average. For me to move forward in my life was going to require me to go into the darkness, but I was too scared.
In 2010, I started studying Fascial Stretch Therapy which led to a paradigm shift in how I saw the human body. It was no longer a mechanical system of muscles and bones, but instead an interconnected vessel not only for our physical being, but also our emotions, our histories, experiences, relationships, traumas and spiritual connections.
The fear of confronting the darkness inside of me led to disease, and to the scariest moments of my life lying in a hospital bed thinking I was going to die. The body whispers before it screams, and my body was screaming loud and clear. It was in this time of despair that I discovered the power of my breath.
In 2013, I started on the path of becoming a certified Wim Hof instructor to heal my physical ailments. Combining breath and cold exposure allowed me to heal my physical body and taught me to shudder my emotional body. It was in an ice bath with Wim that I broke down (and through) and cried for the first time in 32 years.
Connecting with the breath is the gateway to reclaiming our health. Physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. For years I worked with people who were suffering from chronic pain. Like me, they had gone through many forms of physical therapy to ‘heal’ a physical injury, but they never looked at the ‘why?’
We have been trained to ignore the emotional distress – the ‘ordinary’ stress and anxiety – of everyday living. We have been trained to hide our emotions. Serious psychic injuries are buried deep within our minds and bodies. Hidden in the shadows.
Further exploration of breathwork in combination with plant medicines led me towards spiritual awakening and healing. The healing of the body, led to the healing of the mind, which ultimately led to the healing of my spirit.
Before I got into the health and fitness world I was a wilderness guide. The wilderness was always a place for me to find myself. I knew it was a special place and working in the city I felt the absence of it. I wanted to take my clients to the woods to find themselves too and in 2015 I founded Breathing in Nature.
In 2020, I took big leaps in healing my heart. I met my soulmate, my spirit mate, my lover and my partner Nici. Together, we are on this adventure aiming to heal our relationship wounds through breathwork, cold water, plant medicines, touch, energy work, tantra and open and honest communication.